Episode 001: Imperfectly Perfect – Launching the Podcast

Tish [00:00:00]:
Hey. Hey. Welcome to the very first episode of Midlife Shenanigans. Or you could say episode one, take 299,000. Kidding. Kind of. I’ve recorded and re recorded this episode so many damn times I have lost track. But here’s the thing.

Tish [00:00:23]:
I finally realized that, that the reason that I have recorded and re recorded, I was telling myself it was because things weren’t quote unquote perfect. Things weren’t quote unquote right. But I realized that that was just a bunch of bullshit. It was a matter of me protecting myself. And what I mean by that is, you know, if I kept recording and re recording and recording and re recording and re recording and re recording, the longer I did that, it kept me in, in action. Yes, I was taking action to do all those recordings, but I was taking in action to actually not put the podcast out into the world. And it was just a form of me protecting myself again. Because, you know, protecting myself was easier.

Tish [00:01:20]:
If I don’t put it out into the world, then, hey, nobody can judge me. But the funny thing is, this is not even my first podcast. I have been podcasting on and off for several years. And so let’s see, this is technically 1, 2. This is my third podcast. Or actually we could say four if we count the Me Skills podcast that I co host with one of my besties, Kelly. So yeah, I have started podcast and I have let podcast fizzle out. And that was another form, I feel like, of the whole being stuck in that cycle of recording and re recording was I was telling myself that, oh, man.

Tish [00:02:13]:
Jeez, Tish, another podcast. Are you actually gonna follow through this time or let this one fizzle out too? So I find it interesting that as I’m going through all of this, Kelly and I sat down and recorded an episode this morning about not letting other people shit on your dreams. And I had kind of this like, aha moment. It wasn’t anybody else shitting on my dreams. It was me. I was making up stories in my head about what other people might think, what they’d say about me switching gears again from shiningself.com to unapologeticallyfat.com to/sizeconfidence.com and the body positive fairy godmother to now tishleigh.com and this new podcast, Midlife Shenanigans. And I just kept thinking about those thoughts over and over and over. It was like I was stuck on this revolving.

Tish [00:03:14]:
Stuck in this revolving door. And then it hit me that today, September 30, is international. Podcast Day. And I decided, enough. I am done shitting on my own dream of getting this podcast into the world. Is it my third podcast? And I’ve let other podcasts go. Yes, that doesn’t matter. It’s still a dream that I had to start podcasting again.

Tish [00:03:43]:
So today, September 30th, International Podcast Day. How fitting that I just get over my own bullcrap and put it out there. So here it is, episode one. Imperfect, Unpolished. Totally me. And if there is one thing that I want you to learn in this episode about me, is that I don’t do perfect. I don’t do polished. I don’t do professional.

Tish [00:04:11]:
It’s just me showing up, real raw, unapologetically me. And then I also had to remind myself, if I don’t do this today, then when? If not me, then who? So here’s what I want this space to be. You and me, two midlife besties, bitching about hot flashes, laughing about the new chin hair that sprouted up overnight. Just me. I literally plucked chin hairs before sitting down to record this. And sometimes there’s gonna be tears. You know, I don’t know about you, but midlife has made me so much more emotional than I normally am. And that’s saying a lot, because the other thing I want you to know about me is I’m super emotional if you are going through something and you’re crying, you will never cry alone if I’m around.

Tish [00:05:11]:
And my friend Kelly that I co host the Me Skills podcast with, she actually even says in our podcast introduction, tish, you’ll never cry alone. Lee, I just want a space where we can chat about all things midlife. I want to talk about, you know, midlife transitions, relationships ending, like becoming empty nesters, reinventing ourselves, or, you know, reclaiming ourselves. But I also want to talk about all the magical midlife stuff, too. My midlife has been so full of love and travel and adventure. And then, of course, there is, you know, what I like to call sometimes the midlife shit shows. I just want to talk about it all. So, basically, I guess what I’m saying is this is just going to be a space for two besties to sit and chat about.

Tish [00:06:13]:
Well, really anything that I feel like flapping my jaws about, honestly. All right, so that’s it for episode one. Quick. It’s not polished, it’s not professional. Just me, you know, showing up. Like me.